For crying out loud… Can my life be anymore awkward?
So I don’t know if I’ll admit this out-loud or to the real people around my life… but I caved and joined a dating site. I joined Christian Mingle… it’s not that I’m desperate… I’m just ridiculously curious and I’m not ruling out the possibility that God could use the site to fine me my soul-mate.
Anyways that’s not the awkward encounter… the awkwardness of my life is that I have found 4 guys that I personally know on this website. It’s weird. I didn’t click their profiles… That would not be good considering it would alert them that I did… I just found out though that one of the guys who used to be my best friend… but then we had a falling out a bit… anyways that he joined Christian Mingle… how did I discover this… Well you can add people to your “favorites” and I was looking at my page and it said that someone added me to their favorites… Like any sane person I clicked on it to see who had favored me… Believe it or not it was this guy who I have been friends with for years… Whom I am still friends with. Why did he favorite me… To stalk me… To see what I post? I feel so exposed… Dirty… Ashamed :|… Mostly embarrassed though… He knows I have a profile on a christian dating site… He knows. How can I look at his face… I know I shouldn’t be embarrassed but I am… It’s mortifying… I am not desirable is the feeling I get… Why did he favorite me… I don’t wanna talk about it.. I’m freaked out… Ah… Why is this my life?